I am in a trying time at this moment. I do not like my job and feel worn out. I am working very hard hours. I am wondering why I am pouring all of my energy into that place and not into my family. I would love to be able to be with them, and involved. I would love to be able to be more of a wife to my husband. He sees me not happy, not smiling. We don't do anything with others. I wish it was different. I feel that I am wasting this year away. I am excited for next year to be involved with them. I am scared too that money will be an issue. I am praying that I am listening to God and not ignoring him.